Day 34 - humble

Over the weekend I was at a prophetic conference.  It was good.   It reminded me of days gone by when I used to attend these things regularly.  We had to give words to the people next to us - and there was lots of teaching about character over gift etc etc

In the middle of the day something reminded me of a powerful word which Alan Vincent gave in Edinburgh way back in the 1990s.   ( I think it was A. V.)  He said he saw the Sword of the Lord, dripping with oil and it was being passed back and forth over a room full of people.  Those who were kneeling with their faces on the floor just heard the swish as it passed over their heads and felt the oil dripping on them.  Anyone who was standing up would get their heads chopped off.    If you were there you will remember that word because it was sobering and challenging but so full of Holy Spirit promise.

Yesterday evening in a different context the whole thing of kneeling and humility came up again.  Twice in two days has to be more than co-incidence.

Maintaining a posture of humility is not easy.   As I get older I see more and more places in my life where entitlement seems to have crept in.  I think that I see myself as a relative expert in some things nowadays - just because Ive been on the road for a while.  During the prophetic conference over the weekend I heard myself saying ' yeah, yeah, I know all this.... heard it before'   which is such an arrogant approach isnt it?   As though I  a) cant see anything new or learn something from anyone else and b) am living in the fullness of everything I have heard before over all the years.    As if.  The fact is that I have had decades worth of great teaching and am actually living out about half a percent of it.   If anyone should have their face in the dust its me .

Interesting point brought out in last nights teaching on humility was that it is not about shame.  We are good at beating ourselves up, feeling guilty, blaming ourselves and squirming in the dust. Humility is not about any of that.  Kneeling before the Lord is about an accurate assessment of where we are at, in the light of who He is.  It is a surrender of all of us in order that we can be filled with the fullness of all of Him.  It is a posture of service and a place of receiving.

Funnily enough I spend quite a lot of time on my knees in my job.  I work with little people and most days I can be found crawling around on the floor just so I can get down to their level.  As a result I go through rather more pairs of trousers than would be normal for a woman my age 😊  And my knees are somewhat toughened - I have to put hand lotion on them to stop the skin being like leather !  Theres a cost involved in being on your knees.  It can be sore.  But if that's where the anointing is then I guess its the only place to be.